You are not alone Sanctus - many have gone through this -- St John of the Cross is the best I have read on the Dark Night -
Hoping to get down to Mount Melleray Abbey in Waterford for a visit in the future when things get back to normal. Might even decide to stay there if it is God's plan at some stage, who knows...!
That is a huge help to me, too. I, too, struggle with feeling abandoned and hated. The Chaplet helps me to see the graces and mercies in my own life, my own sin, and what Christ has already given me as I wait, and live that out. I hear you. Will pray, Sir. Just also discovered this devotion, and it seems to compliment and mirror the Divine Mercy Devotion, too. https://www.marypages.com/rosary-of-the-holy-wounds-en.html God bless you, Sanctus.
My copy of In Senu Jesu arrived today. Looking forward to reading it when the time is right. I have been considering becoming a priest in the future, and apparently the book is directed to priests aswell.
Have to start believing Jesus loves and forgives me and can heal deep wounds. It seems to be getting a little easier lately.
Thanks Katfalls. Suffered a very heavy spiritual attack while asleep last night, usually that happens when at a turning point for the better (please God). Have also been reading a few paragraphs from In Senu Jesu. It seems very good so far.
LOL loved that it gave me a good giggle after reading most of the posts... You didn't find the medal it was given to you! Gods way of answering your prayers... keep praying and asking he is surely listening... As for any attacks the great John vianney used to say when he got a barrage of attacks "a big fish must be coming my way" Stay strong Sanctus
Wow kept on reading after I quoted your post... Lol my last reply... Looks like John vianney was a million steps ahead of me
It's interesting- before I used to feel under attack coming back from,or going to, Medjugorje, for the past few years however have felt under the same level of spiritual attack at home. Wondering why that is? Perhaps it's the same with everyone the past few years. There has definitely been a shift.
I think attacks are ramping up on everyone. This is war. I often lose sight of that. Sometimes the battle just gets more fierce and more present. I dont know why.
As we say here in Ireland, AED- "it's tough going"!! It does seem more present and fierce at times...
Found this video very helpful, hopefully others going through darkness may find it helpful too! It is on Saint John of the Cross and the Dark Night.
Hi everyone, seem to be going through quite a heavy dark night of the soul or senses at the moment. Not sure what stage of Saint John's or Saint Teresa's phase of it I am on. Seems to be a lot of inside stuff and a bit of outside stuff too. It is a feeling I am losing my mind sometimes with periods of feeling rejected and abandoned by God. It can be very heavy at times, but I have to trust it will work out for the good. Just have to suffer through it for the moment I guess.
Just saw the number 39 upon finishing the previous post. I see that number regularly. A spiritual advisor of mine says it is a sign to keep going from Jesus. The dark night is very, very tough though if that is what I'm experiencing. Very tough and heavy. I feel I am being slightly persecuted by some of my neighbors too, perhaps that is a part of it. It can be exhausting at times, but God's light will shine in eventually as is promised to those who follow the path. Perhaps it is a purgation or purification.
