Sometimes it feels like this darkness wont end. I made mistakes in my past but I am sorry. I go to mass daily and say the rosary but I still feel disconnected from God, jesus and Mary
Have you read The Case for Grace by Lee Strobal? It helped me to understand God’s Grace. True testimonies
NO. NO. NO. NOT TRUE. Reject this temptation Peter. You must. Go to Our Lady. Beg her help. But do not give in to these hideous temptations.
no way; remember that even in the time of chastisement and trial there is a manifest act of God's mercy: Hebrews 12 1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us rid ourselves of every burden and sin that clings to us and persevere in running the race that lies before us 2 while keeping our eyes fixed on Jesus, the leader and perfecter of faith. For the sake of the joy that lay before him he endured the cross, despising its shame, and has taken his seat at the right of the throne of God. 3 Consider how he endured such opposition from sinners, in order that you may not grow weary and lose heart. 4 In your struggle against sin you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding blood. 5 You have also forgotten the exhortation addressed to you as sons: “My son, do not disdain the discipline of the Lord or lose heart when reproved by him; 6 for whom the Lord loves, he disciplines;he scourges every son he acknowledges.” 7 Endure your trials as “discipline”; God treats you as sons. For what “son” is there whom his father does not discipline? 8 If you are without discipline, in which all have shared, you are not sons but bastards. 9 Besides this, we have had our earthly fathers to discipline us, and we respected them. Should we not [then] submit all the more to the Father of spirits and live? 10 They disciplined us for a short time as seemed right to them, but he does so for our benefit, in order that we may share his holiness. 11 At the time, all discipline seems a cause not for joy but for pain, yet later it brings the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who are trained by it. 12 So strengthen your drooping hands and your weak knees. 13 Make straight paths for your feet, that what is lame may not be dislocated but healed. you must always remember that faith in Christ and the sacraments is an indissoluble bond between the Holy Church and you; and continually seeking all of them and recognizing yourself as a sinner, you demonstrate that have the Holy Spirit in your life: John 16:7-8 7 Still, I am telling you the truth: it is for your own good that I am going, because unless I go, the Paraclete will not come to you; but if I go, I will send him to you. 8 And when he comes, he will show the world how wrong it was, about sin, and about who was in the right, and about judgement. Ephesians 2:8-10 8 For by grace you have been saved through faith, and this is not from you; it is the gift of God; 9 it is not from works, so no one may boast. 10 For we are his handiwork, created in Christ Jesus for the good works that God has prepared in advance, that we should live in them.
I still feel bothered about certain sins from the past. I tell God that I am sorry. I hope he forgives me
I just realised what's missing here - judging from only your posts, that is. A spirit of gratitude and thankfulness. And no one can 'give' you this/do this for you - but yourself.
Thanks seagrace. There was a time I used to thank God a hundred times a day but now I feel he is judging me over sins of the past. I feel very worried and abandoned by God.
Thanklessness never helps improve a situation. I'm not a naturally thankful person but thanks to some great blogs I follow, I've learned that not being pre-dispositioned to thankfulness is not a problem at all; I just need to work harder at it than others. One blog that has taught me so much is The Rabbitpatch Diary - https://rabbitpatchdiary.com/ The blogger is a gentle-souled 60 something Christian lady. She has very little money and has gone through so much pain, yet reading her posts, you'd think she is very rich. Gratitude and thankfulness just flows like a stream through her. She waits for prayers to be answered just as much as you or I, but she doesn't set that as a condition for thanksgiving. We shouldn't either.
About a month or so ago, I was holding on by a thread myself. Thank you Seagrace, for pointing out the obvious to me as well. Looking forward to checking out The Rabbit Patch Diary ~
When I am in that dark and lonely place as you describe, I think of Peter , cold, alone and trembling after hearing that cock crow having just denied our Lord for the 3rd time. After everything he saw Jesus do, and yet he still did betray him. Jesus knew this, he knew what Peter was going to do, yet he still called him to follow him. He still chose Peter to lead his church. You are human just like Peter, and we will fall. Our God knows this and still loves us and calls us time and time again. When you fall, run back to his open arms quickly. His love is unconditional.
…Ive been praying for you, silently, and other intentions posted here. I feel I’ve been holding on by a thread myself, for a long time. My advice? Just keep holding on to that thread. There is no where else to turn, but to Jesus Christ.
