On the verge of despair

I just received a text from my dad several minutes ago that it won’t be until APRIL that he’ll know just when he will have his operation. I honestly feel sick… Sorry I can’t read the responses, but I need to lie down.

 

I’m lying in bed now, I’m doing a little better now. I’m looking at whatever options I have left to make it to Chile, I hope pray that in the end I do indeed have my own land, wife and family and am able to advance spiritually. I’ll see what I can do, please keep praying I have the Grace to handle this and not despair.

 

You have been through a lot! The highlight above truly summarizes the goodness of God!

Praise the faithfulness of the Two. Hearts!

 

Prayers for you!
“The joy of the Lord is my strength”

 

Praying for you RW.

 

Prayers for your dad. It sounds like he needs an operation and has a lot on his plate right now?

 

I think I might actually be losing the will to live here.

 

This could be very serious, RW. Tell your parents right away.

 

I’m speaking with them.

 

Good!

 

Remember the Lord may be stopping your move because it is not within your best interest to move right now. He is wise beyond all wisdom for He IS Wisdom. Your future wife may also not be ready to meet you yet and have her own hurdles to get over before she meets you. I was engaged once and when it broke up I lost all trust in God and was away from Him for a long time. Many years later I now know He was wise and had me not marry because that ended up not being best for me. My life became my career and then I was removed from my position I was crushed but this time tried to lean on God and He carried me through and returned me to His Church and to my faith. IMO it’s ok to be angry with God. We are children and sometimes children throw temper tantrums but as we grow in faith we grow in trust and begin to learn that He knows when the When’s should be and when our plans coincide with His Will. It’s difficult to take up the yoke but He is gentle and loves us greatly. Do not despair. Trust and love and be accepting of the trials. For we are soldiers of Christ and He is training us for battle.

 

Well said. True.

 

Prayed at Mass for you tonight. Great advice above RW.

 

On Saturday I’ll see what options I have available and if it’s still possible to move to Chile. There is a farm here that I might be able to gain work at but it’s difficult for a variety of reasons including just gaining access to the place. Please keep up your prayers that I’m able to make some progress.

 

I'll be speaking to my dad shortly about gaining farm work; please pray that I'm successful and we can figure this out.

 

Good luck Rosary Wielder. Pray that you and your dad settle on something wonderful!

 

I’m going to be phoning the farm sometime today to see if they have boarding or transportation available.

I am doing fairly better now, thanks for your prayers.

 

I don't have time to explain what's been happening but, I'm now going through a bad episode of relapse, please pray for me; I really need to get things together and still haven't been able to after all these years, I can't waste more time.

This video here touches on something I need to do, but for some reason can't figure out how:

 

Prayed for all members at Adoration.

 

Prayers for you and offering up Mass in the morning.

Our Defeats are very often God's victories.

If I had won all my own battles I would be burning in hell by now.

Man proposes and God Disposes and thank God for that.