Thank you soooo much for posting & sharing. This is what encourages me to post online, we don't know who could be reading our words. Exactly me, too. I expect my old self dealing with harsher sufferings. We want to do it all & have that expectation of ourselves. We beat ourselves up over things, too. A friend mentioned radical acceptance. My entire life I've been fighting my sufferings rather than accepting them. So there has to be radical acceptance & radical surrender to God. Whatever God wants for our lives. I find it so difficult because I'm a type A personality. Jesus is a type C - He's in CONTROL hehe. That's Jesus' wisdom, I could never come up with these things & I have such bad brain fog that my mind is like mush! Lol
You described me well ; Control/fixer /perfectionist madman And thinking i can only present myself to God as this perfect person. Maybe, just maybe this year with His grace that old man goes away and the man who truly knows God loves him warts and all steps forward.
Thank you miker, a wonderful post that transcends us all to God's will for us in accepting his mercy.
This is an extremely powerful Word of Knowledge Mike. It makes perfect sense. What a tremendous insight the Holy Spirit has given you. In the Passion film when Jesus meets his Mother on the way to Calvary he says " behold Mother. I make all things new." Out of that unspeakable suffering He did indeed make all things new. And out of your terrible suffering He is making all things new for you. You have been given quite a grace and you have been so eloquent in expressing it.
The culture of death, darkness and despair.## No God, no hope, no joy, no light, no nothing. Emptiness and despair. Death. Hell on Earth.
Beautiful post Miker. What a gift you have been given. Really gave me pause to think about my own 'old wineskin'. Thank you for sharing this.
What a wonderful and powerful insight you were given. It totally applies to my own life and current situation since the death of my mother in October, thanks so much for sharing it with us.
Just reading this now Miker. I too need to hear this word. I'm exhausted and always straining to be the person and mother I have always been. It's not possible. I need to let go and allow God to turn me into a new creation. Such a beautiful word you received and thank you for sharing.
I had two dreams last night. In the first dream I was a farmer on a remote island farm and was talking to the local Doctor. He confirmed to me that I had a large mass ,a growth and had to go for tests to see it it was malignant. I felt the gentleman's shock, almost terror as he realised he might be about to die. I also saw that he was thinking of all the things he had to do on his farm, his animals, crops and so and what would happen to them all. The first thing I thought of was how I would react if I was told I might die. The second was thinking about all the cancer saints who are a modern sign in the Church. Young people who accepted with great grace the knock on the door calling them to heaven. It reminds me too of the parable of Jesus of the rich man who built barns to keep all his wealth but God said to him, 'Foll this night your soul is required of you!' It was a good wake up call o me. Life is so passing. My second dream was a young man who was being conscripted to fight in an army. But when he got there no other young people had shown up, He someone say to him 20 did not come. I saw that organised anti conscription groups meant that very few young people were turning up when called upon to do so. I also saw groups of soldiers and police raiding homes of the young who had refused the call up. I feel so sorry for all the young people who are about to die in senseless wars that will spread everywhere and to no good purpose.
I had a vivid dream the other night in which I went to a Charity Shop to buy a suit. I found a blue one that seemed nice and put it on. As I walked through the streets I started to notice it was dirty and had a very big tear in the shoulder , did not fit right and it seemed to get worse and worse. After that people in the street looked at me in shock and disgust. They thought my suit was horrible. After that I became afraid my new suit might be full of vermin and I began to take it off in horror.. This reminds me of the Particular Judgement after death and the Illumination of Conscience when we will see ourselves as we really are. When we will be faced with our sins. The suit represented the state of my soul. We are always the last to know.
I had a dream last night I was back in Ireland in the 1920's during the Irish War of Independence against the English. It was a really beautiful village beside a lake and a mountain that swept down to the lake. The British had just captured or killed a lot of the locals who were in the Irish Republican Army in the area. I dreamt I was with the officer who was in charge with them in the locality and I felt his sadness and anger. It reminded me of how awful war is. In my dream as I walked along the lakeside someone came up to me and told me one of my brothers was dead and I woke up with tears running down my cheeks .