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Have it checked out. I had a dreadful speeding heart years ago and it was a mitral valve problem. It resolved itself. Agnes mentioned anxiety. That can also cause it. Be sure to have an MD check it out.

 

Good on you Agnes. It is not easy. You are a great example for all of us. I will pray for your daughter's soul and her children.

 

I too suffer with great feelings of abandonment, arridity, spiritual numbness etc. Now I know this video is AI but it very much gives the gist of a deplorable challenge - that of denying Jesus (as Peter the apostle had done) or suffering martrydom by drowning. And meditating on this theme helps me a lot. If I really enter into the reality of such a choice, I come out in a sweat at the thoughts of suffering death by drowning. But I equally see the despair of living after having denied Jesus Christ. When I emerge from the stupor of this desperate meditation, no effort to pray through arridity, to sacrifice, to do acts of charity, to bear pains, depression etc. seem too large to bear. I am most willing to bear and undergo anything God sends me, happy in the knowledge that I have not been tested with such martyrdom and found wanting in my response. There but for the mercy of God go I.

 

Sorry, just seeing this Agnes. I will offer up Sunday Mass for your daughter's soul. You are courageous and Im sure these past 2 years have been a big cross for you. I will pray the Lord send you angels to comfort you. Peace

 

Thank you so much Mike, how kind of you! I pray for you and Alice daily. It became a habit.

 

Such kindness, thank you! God is softening my rough edges slowly....prayers returned.... when we ask for prayers, it's a humbling experience,.
But I do believe God wants us to ask for help. Thanks again

 

Agnes, your intentions are in my Mass tomorrow. Just saw this today. You are a sweetheart.

 

Thank you so much!! Your timing is perfect!! Prayers right back at ya.

 

It is a huge cross to lose an adult child. It is a pain that never goes away. It is a true offering of reparation to Jesus because it never stops hurting. Some days are excruciating. Some days its a dull ache. Some days its almost life as normal and then it rolls in like a rogue wave and sweeps us out to sea. All I can say is I truly understand. For me it has been 15 years and I have made my peace with the loss but I am never going to be " over it" in the human sense. I trust God and His Will and I accept it but the ache remains. If it werent for the Blessed Mother I would find it much harder. I will bring you and your intentions to Mass tomorrow Agnes.

 

Beautiful post.

 

This is so tough on a parent. I am sure it is traumatizing.. will offer prayers, rosary and Mass for this intention Agnes.