Some of my best prayer times have been walking up Towsley Road near my home past the nearby creek at night. The line of trees on either side form a frame for the shimmering stars. It is as if the Lord reaches down in the quiet to reassure me of His forever Love and Mercy!
In a very difficult place at the moment but trying to trust in God. I recently saw this quote "A saint is a sinner who keeps trying". St. JoseMaria Escriva.
Hello Sanctus. I spent five months confessing my sins because there were thousands of them, in every size, color, and variety. Some were so dirty that the priest swallowed hard. Of course, I had to go to every church in the area to spread the load, and in one confession at the pew, I scandalized the ladies who were there because everything could be heard. That happened many years ago, but to me it feels like it was yesterday. I still think there are priests who give me sidelong glances at Mass, as if to say, "There's the one possessed by Satan." It was exhausting because when I woke up in the morning, I’d remember a new sin, and they were all horrifying. Honestly, I don’t have enough future life to purge all of that. Some nites I believed God would never forgive me, but I felt any consequence was just, and I remember deciding to fall as low as possible in my own estimation because I realized that my pride, lust, and extravagance were the cause of all the pain I had inflicted on so many people and on Jesus Christ. I plunged that spear into His side, and He came to me to show me His love, which was so tender and sweet that I live on that memory. Many years have passed since then. There’s something you need to break in your comfort zone because it’s keeping you from giving your all, and He doesn’t want half—He wants you whole in heaven.
That’s a path you start from the bottom, and it takes (I was going to say courage) a bit of God’s madness or daring to change something that holds us back and is very hard to overcome. Only God is watching you. Others don’t influence you.
You have my prayers Sanctus. If all you can do is repeat the name of Jesus while you go through this storm it is enough. You are very much following our Lord in that you endure your crosses and yet remain ever so gentle. I don't think you have an ounce of gall, which is something I look up to you for.
Praise the Lord, the baby Elizabeth is carrying is alive! A heartbeat was detected yesterday but please keep her in your prayers that it all goes well for her and her wee angel. And her hubby's surgery went well also Thank you
I just read some very encouraging words from Saint Louis de montfort. He said once we consecrate ourselves to Our Lady's heart we are totally hers and that she will never leave us alone. I found it helpful because I have made the consecration to Mary a number of times.
I believe with all my heart that this is true. " never was it known that anyone who fled to thy protection implored thy help or sought thy intercession was left unaided..."
