I am so very, very sorry to read this Liza. But I admire you so much for struggling to make your marriage work in what must seem like an impossible situation. You must be a woman of deep prayer. Praying for you and yours through the week.
I have to say reading about it he very great Crosses other people carry really inspires me. Like everyone else I have my own Crosses but to me they appear microscopic compared to the Crosses of others. I suppose this is a terrible thing to write but it puts my own tiny Crosses into perspective and seem to fade the not nothingness. As they say walk in another man's shoes. Doing the Stations of the Cross has been a big help to me in my life recently, such a source of Wisdom. We really do have to stagger our way to Calvary carry our very own Crosses. We really our mourning and weeping in this valley of tears. But life is such a gift and source of boundless joy too. At least I find it so. Even the little things.
I sometimes wish I could help carry others people Crosses at least a little while to give people a break. But to be honest when I read about many of them they would probably kill me stone dead in a couple of minutes. But I very, very much admire those who do bear them and bear them so well...
I was wracking my brains thinking of things that might console people carrying great Crosses. One would be the scriptural promise that my grace is sufficient unto you. We never get a Cross we cannot carry because Christ is carrying it with us. Every Cross we are sent is the Cross we most need. No Cross is an accident. Beyond this each Cross we carry is tailored to strengthen us in an area were we are weakest. Great Cross , Great crown. The greater the Cross the greater the amount of sanctification it will bring in our spiritual lives. Crosses , no matter how terrible tend to pass and when they do they bring with them great, great joy. Like the sun coming out from behind the clouds after a storm.. We are never closer to nor more like Christ than we hang on a Cross.
I think although we all get Crosses constantly in our lives big and small there will be for most of us two or three , maybe several times we get hit with whammys events that are just so huge that they seem to crush you flat as a pancake. But these when borne are real life changers. It is rather as if God threw us a lifeline from heaven . Most people are happy to settle for the mediocre, for the middle of the road, for what everyone else is doing. To give part of themselves to God but not it all. These huge crush you flat Crosses are the doorways to sainthood. They make giving just a part of yourself impossible. Times when giving it all is the only way out from under.
Liza My heart breaks for you. All I can say is HOLD ON. claim God's promises. It says in the Bible that God hates divorce. Claim that! " Father God in Your Mercy hear me! I stand on your promises. What God has joined no man may put asunder. You hate divorce. In Jesus's Name i beg You to act on my behalf.God arise and let my enemies be scattered. O Lord come to my aid in Jesus Holy Name." Get blessed exorcised Holy Water and use it on your husband's clothes. Car. All possessions. If he is no longer in the home shake it in his direction and pray " In the Holy Name of Jesus I bind every spirit not of the Holy Spirit afflicting my husband. I send them to the foot of the Cross for Jesus to deal with them as He wishes." " With the golden chain of the Holy Rosary I bind my husband and children and my self to the Immaculate Heart of Mary. I fly to thy patronage O Holy Mother of God. Despise not my petition but protect my marriage my husband and my children from all harm O most gracious and glorious ever Virgin Mary." " As one flesh with my husband in the holy sacrament of Matrimonyin Jesus Name in the power of His precious Blood I take authority over every unclean spirit afflicting me and my husband and our marriage. In Jesus Name leave us!" Follow it up with the prayer to St Michael and your Guardian Angel. His and yours. Gloves are off. This is war. Use these powerful spiritual weapons. Be loving and patient with your husband. Forgive him ftom your heart as an act of will. Call on St Joseph to remove this woman. Even as you pray for her salvation. I am sorry you are sick. I know you are exhausted but believe me God is on your side. If God is for us who can be against us? I have seen a similar situation many years ago with a very good friend. This battle was won with these spiritual weapons. With God all things are possible. Trust Jesus! Hold on. Get to Mass as often as you can. Give up the strife of the girl scouts. For give them. Move on. Put your energy into prayer and onto love and forgiveness. Offer it up in union with the Wounds of Jesus. Get to confession frequently. There is so much I could say here but I promise you I saw this once before and God moved in a mighty way. He will take care of you no matter what. He will not let you down. Trust! And fight. And wait for the victory. You have my prayers. And all of us here. Please stay in touch.
Just want to add bless yourself and your children. Frequently too with the Holy Water and call on God's protection. Cover yourself and your children in the Precious Blood and Our Lady's mantle.
I have been going through a certain cross for several years now. Each time I almost get out of it, where life starts to make a comeback, another wave comes crashing down. My experience has been that it is not about making more effort or a kind of ritual of prayer to try and get out of the cross. But rather to surrender to it, accepting the crushing and grinding, thanking God for it. This is what brings me closer to God, this is what breathes life back into me and others around me. The crushing waves carry me to the shore when I simply let go. In this surrender, there is prayer, there is pain, but there is also new life and peace of mind. There also comes a greater trust in God knowing that He is in full control, no matter how much others may panic around me. Fighting the cross creates a fatigue that sleep cannot cure, that generates sickness and frustration. The cure is the very thing we want to be cured of. I hope this helps someone out there. I also pray for you all daily, not to be cured of your crosses, but that you come closer to God in them. Knowing your true nature and the Power that resides within you to withstand anything. Matthew 16:24-25 Then Jesus told his disciples, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.
I am so sorry, Liza. It sounds like so much at once. I am keeping you close in prayer. Hopefully, there’s some family or friends you can reach out to. May God show you the way and Our Lady assist you in all your necessities. The surrender novena on audio/ YouTube sung has helped me through many trials.
Just catching up here. I will keep you all in my prayers. We are all in a spiritual conflict. Satan is attacking families. Pray the rosary and I will keep you in my rosary. You are all amazing.
Awesome post AED. Just the words I wanted to say but didn’t have the ability myself. AED I still say your prayer to the Guardian Angels and to the Holy Face etc etc you Liza also. gave us and I ran off and laminated some for others. You are a gem. I will pray for
